Today, the sun seems to shine different.

Normally, I'm used to daylight waking me up.
I usually sleep with the curtains open, and let the brightness of a new day wake me up.
However, that day it didn't look to shine ...

... I am usually prone to lucid dreams, perhaps since I was a child. Within my dreams I am in control, I dominate for once.
When I have a very heavy day at work, I always take a deep breath and think about bedtime, it's like my favorite part of the day.

I'm not sure what exactly happened, but I think I can sum it up as "too much sleep", just because I don't remember waking up today.


I'm not someone too special, my work is vulgar, I have a vulgar face, vulgar hair...
However, it is when I am alone that I see and make the most of my true self-esteem, I do sports, I make myself up the way I like to,
I also draw often in my mother's studio, even do some live streaming if I'm particularly confident that day...

but in general, I hate people, I hate to feel their eyes on me, and I hate to think I need their constant approval.


The snow thing, it's confusing...

I've always hated it. it's terrifying, it hurts on contact with the skin, and it gives me terrible anxiety. Nevertheless it gives me an uncontrollable curiosity,
like a kind of guilty pleasure...

It is possible that the fact that I am in this place has something to do with this contradictory feeling.

All around me, I can only glimpse trees and more trees, surrounded, of course, by a thick and immaculate snow as white as emptiness.
It smells of nature, of an unexplored place, but also of danger and mystery.

I am aware that reality is not as I know it. Right now I see myself in my cell phone camera, everything seems real, except for one small detail, my mouth, my nose, are not there.
At first I wanted to scream, I wanted to hyperventilate. However, something inside me did not let me. It was as if I did not need oxygen here, as if I was already breathing calmly somewhere else.

This duality between feeling in an idyllic, personal place and also on the lookout for anything nesting in these woods makes me curious. Should I explore? or on the contrary
hide and wait for someone to wake me up?
But... what if no one wakes me up? what if I'm trapped here forever?


Calm down Hiya ...


Take a closer look around you.

The sky is dark purple, between so much cloud I can't discern if it's morning or afternoon, what I am sure is that the sun is shining in the sky somewhere, maybe I should find it.
There is a long path under my feet... it looks artificial but I'm not sure. After a couple of hesitations, I set out to walk it;

Birds sound over my head, the fog doesn't seem very thick and there is hardly any wind, I can see how the terrain is uneven and uneven.

To my right, a deep slope parallel to the traverse, trees and more trees thicken it until you can't see its dark end.

To my left, more slope, ascending, I see what appear to be pine cones and acciculas where there is no snow, creating a nice contrast purple-gray and deep white.


After a few minutes of travel, I find myself in a clearing, it seems to be a tundra.

I see on a large snowy rock a huge old sign nailed,
It is a map of the area, which does not seem to be too descriptive.

It reflects what seems to be the name of this place, it is a mountain called "内向性山" or "Naikō-sei yama".
Under the title, a minimalist "topographical map", so simple it almost looks like a diagram, is quite confusing.


It has 4 geographic points of interest, numbered:

1 - PATH

It seems to be where I am right now, to the west. There is this tundra.

2 - COTTAGE

A kind of big hut surrounded by trees, it is located in the center. Maybe there I will find some warmth.

3 - CABLEWAY

Two massive towers connected to each other with a small suspended transport unit, I can use it to climb to the top of Naikō-sei, from there I can see the sun shining.

4 - DEPTHS

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Where should I go now?


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